saw a beautiful sight today..

seagulls were flying.. over a particular spot on freeway north at around 8plus.. it was just.. perfect

getting boring over here at livejournal..

so, i'm closing this down..

ciaoz to readers...

Dear Pimp

here's another one for you.

well, i dont understand u updating me on ur life when i dont even reply to u. it seems that u're carrying on a one sided conversation.

well, since u say u're going to china to work, here's all the best to you.

but well, i hope that u enjoy the last of ur days in sg.

here's a toast to u. you Pimp.

was watchin rove live last night.

and they had news (for rove live)

and well,

the reporter was reporting abt the anniversary of the katrina hurricane.

and so the president was walking thru the rubble in new orleans then he went "geez, this place looks like its been hit by a hurricane"

:S

this is all fictitious. no pun intended.

the main theme of this post is .. flowers.. ok.. see, last week, verlyn and valerie and their parents went to the market and it was so sweet of them to get us roses.. everyone in the house had one.


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anyway,on my way home, i always walk past trinity to get to the bus-stop. not too long ago, this tree started to bloom. i dont know what flowers they are but they do look like plums.

anyway, they're not as big as they seem. the petals are only 1.5of our finger nails



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yeah yea.. readers may think 'why flowers?'
hmmm firstly, i've never received roses from pple for just no reason. and roses in sg i've seen have never bloomed this prettily. and as for the 2nd part.. i think they look like sakura in japan from afar.. hehehehe.. soooo pretty that i stopped there, and took these pics. thank goodness no one saw me.

i see you and i think of a pimp. you shld be honoured.

my good friends whom know me know that i have high standards. so if i see you having qualities of a pimp, i think you can just either knock your head against the wall, get someone to dig out your heart and eat it yourself. Or, alternatively, you can just jump into the sea with a knife, dig out your heart underwater and watch the fish eat your heart bit by bit, bite by bite.

and i'd wanna see that.

anyway, maybe i think you're sooooo girlish that you're not fit to be a guy. pls note that i use guy. because you're not a man. well, u have the physical features of a man but when i look at you, i just see a pimp.

even though i've only known u for a few months, i think you shld seriously take a look in the mirror every morning and pray to god to give u a better face. because if u dont have a better face, u shld just smash it and get it over and done with.

see? now u've gone and made me pissed with u.. you pimp.

anyway, knowing that u're a pimp makes me feel so much better.

there. shirls, like the way the fish eat out the heart?

just came bk from metro.

honestly, the music sucks. big time. totally majorly sucks.

i CANT believe how pple in perth dance to lousy music like that.

anyway, it ended good. even though music sucked all the way.

my sista bk in sg hasnt heard anything from me in a long time and thinks that all is well. well, why is it well sometimes? coz i've been watching Family Guy! haahah

and it really makes me crack with all the silly things and words they say. makes me forget the problems, troubles, bad things etc etc..

there are two scenes that stand out.

ok, intro.

main characters are the griffins.

this scene is where Meg, the daughter rejects a suitor called chris and he finds a new girl.

so the new girl comes to show off and strut around in front of meg.

she says 'do u know that chris like to take videos of me?' and of course, shows herself off..

then meg says 'oh, he does that to me too. he'd take videos of them and burn them into tapes and pass them to me'

ok meg was trying to get chris back but what was her mentality in saying that? jealous? showing that she had an advantage? or what?

2nd scene.

the griffins playing trivia. and louis changed griffin's deck of cards to the pre-nursery level.

so her question to him was " what colour are fire engines?"
he went 'hmm.. fire engines, fire engines.. what colour are fire engines.. hmm what colour are red fire engines? fire engines.. hmmm'
meg: that's right ! u got the correct answer! they're red!
him: OH!!! that's right! they're red! i know that! see see, i know that they're red! thank goodness i watch national geographic channel.

when i was thinking what has nat geo gotta do with fire engines, they jumped to a scene in nat geo.

'the red fire engine has set its eyes on its prey. it crouches.. and when its ready, it jumps on them. the deer are scared. they run off. the fire engine circles in on one prey and runs after it. and its gets its prey! the fire engine settles down to feed on its prey. and the ambulances wait for their turn.'

when i saw this, i was laughing so loud and i couldnt stop! omg, what were they thinking! hahahahaha

心里兴奋地往你的公司走去. 我们期待的孩子终于有了. 我迫不及待的想让你知道这个消息.

站在大街上, 我深吸一口气, 突然间觉得这世界真美好.
可是, 竟然会让我见到你和一个女人在你公司的大门口拥抱.
我心里突然觉得不适. 难道是她回来了? 不可能. 你们已经分手了.
我企图说服自己.

可是, 当你们分开时, 我的心, 也跟着掉落了. 她回来了. 突然间, 我觉得我是多余的. 我是你们之间的第三者. 手中的医学报告不知不觉中掉了. 也许是那动作让你把视线转到对街上, 让你看见我.

我看见了你眼中的震惊, 内疚, 和… 愧欠. 是那愧欠让我有了决定. 决定放手, 不再守着一段没有结果的爱情.

‘祝你幸福’ 虽然说的不大声, 但我相信你听见了. 于是, 我转身, 消失于人群里.


the end.

well, was crossing the road to get to the bus stop today.. and then, i see this really cool sports car.. BUT, it was in auto mode... i dont understand.. hmmm the point in getting a sports car with an auto gear coz then, u cant feel the wonderful feeling of changing gear and driving..

anyway, why am i so free to blog before school? hah! its coz this person wants me to come to sch early just to sit down and wait for class. @#%^.. like, what's 10 mins difference ya?

lemme just sidetrack from my story for a while coz this just came to me.


remember the tree, the leaf and the wind?

why did the leaf leave ? because of the wind's pursuit or because the tree didnt try to keep it?

sometimes i do wonder.. maybe its half of each.

maybe the leaf felt that there was no point staying with tree anymore. there will be so many other leaves after it leaves. the tree will always be the same. the same leaves will always grow.

but the wind is never the same. no gust is as strong as the last one. no directions is ever exactly the same to the latitude.

maybe the leaf felt its time to leave.


why am i so sad? maybe because i just finished dolphin bay and the story line makes me really sad. maybe coz of other stuff.. maybe coz i'm stressed over school work. who knows?


its a long long journey, till i find own self worth. maybe u may think that i'm not worth anything. maybe u think that i'm worth something. on anything.
when satan mocks and friends turn to foes, it feels like everything is out to make me lose control.
its a long long journey, till i find my way home to you.

i was thinking of saying sth silly here coz its been a long time since i've said sth crazy here.. so i was thinking abt it while i was bathing..

and so as usual, i finished shampooing, conditioning my hair so i left it on my hair to stay for a while.. and then i took the facial foam, globbed abit on my palm, and then, rubbed my palms together, and then, put my palms on top of my head.. ie, my hair.

i immediately went 'OH SHIT!!!"

sigh..

its really a silly thing i did.

从家人接到消息说你要结婚时, 心里的震惊是难以形容的.
我提不起勇气参加婚礼. 寄上礼物已竭尽我所能… 那夜,我的心没停止的痛了一晚.

好久没回家了. 这一次,是在五年里,第一次回家过年.
看见家人亲切的微笑, 让我感觉到家的温暖.

半年后, 我再次回到枫林. 那儿, 还是一如从前… 满树的枫叶围绕着我, 就象是枫的天堂.
漫无边际地走着, 欣赏着风景, 没想到迎面而来的人是你.

看你过得好,我从心里露出了笑容. ‘你好吗?’ 多么默契的开场白,让彼此都笑了出来.尴尬消失了. 简单结束了陌生


单纯的坦诚让我向你坦白当年的暗恋. 不扰了. 而你,却笑了笑,没说什么.

走在布满枫叶的路道上, 回忆起我俩之见的旧事,让我了解时间无法倒转.

你还记得你说过的话吗? 那年春天, 你对我说,每年的秋天,在我生日时,要带我去看枫叶. 我们钩手指,盖手印. 说好了, 不变.

可是,在三年后,你第一次失约. 为了她.

远远地,我看着你们拥抱, 亲密地举止, 快乐的眼神. 不知不觉,我手中的蛋糕掉了. 我的心,好痛,好痛. 在那时,我才发现,我竟然喜欢你. 那是我第一次心痛.

当时,我转身离去. 到了家里, 我在房里枯等,就希望你还记得我们的约定. 可是, 那天, 你没有来. 整个秋季, 心里终究希望你会象从前一样, 拿着礼物,到我家, 说要帮我庆生,要带我去看枫叶.

那年之后, 你就没再遵守承诺. 我在很久以后才发现,因为她的生日,也在秋天.
从此,我和你,就从来没有到过那片枫林赏枫叶.



to be continued.....

你对我的承诺还算数吗? 我在等你实现承诺的那天. 等你,成了我的习惯.

海的思念绵延不绝
终于和天在地平线交会
爱如果走得够远
应该也会跟幸福相见

你对我说: ‘只要相信,期待就会成真’ 这是真的吗? 为什么你从来都没有来找我?

承诺常常很像蝴蝶
美丽的飞盘旋然后不见
但我相信你给我的誓言
就像一定会来的春天

是时候该向前看了吗? 是时候该放开了吗? 也许吧….

我始终带着你爱的微笑
一路上寻找我遗失的美好
不小心当泪滑过嘴角
就用你握过的手抹掉

如果放不开,那是因为谁都不能取代你.

再多的风景也从不停靠
只一心寻找我遗失的美好
有的人说不清哪里好
但就是谁都替代不了

如果我和你注定要到老,那…我一定会等到你.

在最开始的那一秒
有些事早已经注定要到老
虽然命运爱开玩笑
真心会和真心遇到

It's a long long journey
till i know where i'm supposed to be
it's a long long journey
and i don't know if i can believe
when shadows fall and block my eyes
i am lost and know that i must hide
it's a long long journey
till i find my way home to you

many days i've spent
drifting on through empty shores
wondering what's my purpose
wondering how to make me strong

i know i will falter i know i will cry
i know you'll be standing by my side
it's a long long journey
and i need to be close to you

sometimes it feels no one understands
i don't even know why
i do the things i do
when pride builds me up till i can't see my soul
will you break down these walls and pull me through

cause it's a long long journey
till i feel that i am worth the price
you paid for me on calvary
beneath those stormy skies

when satan mocks and friends turn to foes
it feel like everything is out to make me lose control
cause it's a long long journey
till i find my way home to you.to you

just finished dolphin bay.. its sad i admit.

but i feel that ze shldnt have just made the decision for bian just like that. it resulted in so many problems in the end.

and in the end, i felt that he loved ni. i'm a selfish person. so i dont think i like that. coz he shld just love bian.

but when he was afraid of her to die, it showed that he loved her.



为什么睡觉时的你会哭?

like this song more and more.. so i just wrote a story on it. the words in the brackets are the lyrics...



好久以前, 你和我都曾有过快乐的日子. 但我知道,你心里一直有着她的影子. 我选择视而不见. 但直到有一天,她有出现了. 而我,也选择离开.


[再见面 已经是朋友了
我们就这么单纯 瞎聊着彼此说以后
时间过了 学会珍惜了
原来最初的快乐 并不是我们要的
终于能够坦白说着 我当时的脆弱
是唯一的一次不留着遗憾的
简单结束了陌生]


再见到你,心,还是会痛. 原来我还爱着你.
过去和你的日子,我会藏起来,在回忆里, 慢慢回味.
但你不需要知道 我,还爱着你.



[我们微笑了 也都不躲了 这单纯的坦诚
就这样 我们为彼此推翻着 不扰了
我们都笑了 时间停了 我们珍惜这一刻
放下累积的负荷 卸下沉默 学会了 不保留]

再次见面,看着你牵着她的手, 我面无表情. 那么多年了.我学会了隐藏自己的情绪.微笑着, 对自己说 ‘是时候该放开了.’

[再见后 真的是朋友了
我们都不再单纯 也会笑着看以后
时间过了 也更珍惜了
原来当时的快乐 仍在你我记忆中
终于能够坦白说着 我现在不寂寞
是全新的一次 再也没了遗憾
简单的回应着伤痛]

这次,我说 ‘祝福你们..’
[我们微笑了 也都不躲了 这单纯的坦诚
你好吗 多么默契的开场白 我笑了
我们不走了 不再尴尬了 不回头凑理由
希望我们从此都真的快乐 说好了 不说走]

i think i'm a little crazy over some songs now..

one of them below..

when did we agree to meet? should i check the information counter if we did agree?
changed from the weekend to monday but its still a sorry from you to me
why not lets meet in paris, since its just words..
the number of times u've let me down is almost the equivalent of 1 year.
it seems like i'm in tokyo, u're in San Fran

i'm always in the east and u've in the west

u're not a good thing. but u cant be replaced.
u're not a good thing, but i cant stop thinking about you... its ur badness that attracts me to you...


well, seems to me that girls like bad guys more... bad guys for me? sigh.. i think i'll see u in a nunnery...

if u liked someone.. and that some1 likes some2. but some1 said that u were cute and nice. some2 goes behind some1's back and hurts u.

would u give up?

that's what the song spoke about. abt u not giving up and despite some2's words, still continued liking some1 and no matter what the people around her said, she still persisted in her own feelings.

its too hard for her to let go.