Would You Know

blur_serene @ 2006-11-01T11:42:00

2006-11-01T03:42:27Z

saw a beautiful sight today..

seagulls were flying.. over a particular spot on freeway north at around 8plus.. it was just.. perfect

blur_serene @ 2006-08-31T22:35:00

2006-08-31T14:36:01Z

getting boring over here at livejournal..

so, i'm closing this down..

ciaoz to readers...

warning: gross stuff.

2006-08-31T13:40:14Z

Dear Pimp

here's another one for you.

well, i dont understand u updating me on ur life when i dont even reply to u. it seems that u're carrying on a one sided conversation.

well, since u say u're going to china to work, here's all the best to you.

but well, i hope that u enjoy the last of ur days in sg.

here's a toast to u. you Pimp.

rove live

2006-08-30T05:38:37Z

was watchin rove live last night.

and they had news (for rove live)

and well,

the reporter was reporting abt the anniversary of the katrina hurricane.

and so the president was walking thru the rubble in new orleans then he went "geez, this place looks like its been hit by a hurricane"

:S

this is all fictitious. no pun intended.

flowers

2006-08-30T05:06:54Z

the main theme of this post is .. flowers.. ok.. see, last week, verlyn and valerie and their parents went to the market and it was so sweet of them to get us roses.. everyone in the house had one.

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anyway,on my way home, i always walk past trinity to get to the bus-stop. not too long ago, this tree started to bloom. i dont know what flowers they are but they do look like plums.

anyway, they're not as big as they seem. the petals are only 1.5of our finger nails

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yeah yea.. readers may think 'why flowers?'
hmmm firstly, i've never received roses from pple for just no reason. and roses in sg i've seen have never bloomed this prettily. and as for the 2nd part.. i think they look like sakura in japan from afar.. hehehehe.. soooo pretty that i stopped there, and took these pics. thank goodness no one saw me.

oops

2006-08-27T18:25:19Z

i see you and i think of a pimp. you shld be honoured.

my good friends whom know me know that i have high standards. so if i see you having qualities of a pimp, i think you can just either knock your head against the wall, get someone to dig out your heart and eat it yourself. Or, alternatively, you can just jump into the sea with a knife, dig out your heart underwater and watch the fish eat your heart bit by bit, bite by bite.

and i'd wanna see that.

anyway, maybe i think you're sooooo girlish that you're not fit to be a guy. pls note that i use guy. because you're not a man. well, u have the physical features of a man but when i look at you, i just see a pimp.

even though i've only known u for a few months, i think you shld seriously take a look in the mirror every morning and pray to god to give u a better face. because if u dont have a better face, u shld just smash it and get it over and done with.

see? now u've gone and made me pissed with u.. you pimp.

anyway, knowing that u're a pimp makes me feel so much better.

there. shirls, like the way the fish eat out the heart?

metro

2006-08-25T20:11:11Z

just came bk from metro.

honestly, the music sucks. big time. totally majorly sucks.

i CANT believe how pple in perth dance to lousy music like that.

anyway, it ended good. even though music sucked all the way.

i just gotta say this..

2006-08-25T01:45:56Z

my sista bk in sg hasnt heard anything from me in a long time and thinks that all is well. well, why is it well sometimes? coz i've been watching Family Guy! haahah

and it really makes me crack with all the silly things and words they say. makes me forget the problems, troubles, bad things etc etc..

there are two scenes that stand out.

ok, intro.

main characters are the griffins.

this scene is where Meg, the daughter rejects a suitor called chris and he finds a new girl.

so the new girl comes to show off and strut around in front of meg.

she says 'do u know that chris like to take videos of me?' and of course, shows herself off..

then meg says 'oh, he does that to me too. he'd take videos of them and burn them into tapes and pass them to me'

ok meg was trying to get chris back but what was her mentality in saying that? jealous? showing that she had an advantage? or what?

2nd scene.

the griffins playing trivia. and louis changed griffin's deck of cards to the pre-nursery level.

so her question to him was " what colour are fire engines?"
he went 'hmm.. fire engines, fire engines.. what colour are fire engines.. hmm what colour are red fire engines? fire engines.. hmmm'
meg: that's right ! u got the correct answer! they're red!
him: OH!!! that's right! they're red! i know that! see see, i know that they're red! thank goodness i watch national geographic channel.

when i was thinking what has nat geo gotta do with fire engines, they jumped to a scene in nat geo.

'the red fire engine has set its eyes on its prey. it crouches.. and when its ready, it jumps on them. the deer are scared. they run off. the fire engine circles in on one prey and runs after it. and its gets its prey! the fire engine settles down to feed on its prey. and the ambulances wait for their turn.'

when i saw this, i was laughing so loud and i couldnt stop! omg, what were they thinking! hahahahaha

第四章~ 最终话

2006-08-23T14:20:59Z

心里兴奋地往你的公司走去. 我们期待的孩子终于有了. 我迫不及待的想让你知道这个消息.

站在大街上, 我深吸一口气, 突然间觉得这世界真美好.
可是, 竟然会让我见到你和一个女人在你公司的大门口拥抱.
我心里突然觉得不适. 难道是她回来了? 不可能. 你们已经分手了.
我企图说服自己.

可是, 当你们分开时, 我的心, 也跟着掉落了. 她回来了. 突然间, 我觉得我是多余的. 我是你们之间的第三者. 手中的医学报告不知不觉中掉了. 也许是那动作让你把视线转到对街上, 让你看见我.

我看见了你眼中的震惊, 内疚, 和… 愧欠. 是那愧欠让我有了决定. 决定放手, 不再守着一段没有结果的爱情.

‘祝你幸福’ 虽然说的不大声, 但我相信你听见了. 于是, 我转身, 消失于人群里.

the end.

i dont understand

2006-08-18T01:39:50Z

well, was crossing the road to get to the bus stop today.. and then, i see this really cool sports car.. BUT, it was in auto mode... i dont understand.. hmmm the point in getting a sports car with an auto gear coz then, u cant feel the wonderful feeling of changing gear and driving..

anyway, why am i so free to blog before school? hah! its coz this person wants me to come to sch early just to sit down and wait for class. @#%^.. like, what's 10 mins difference ya?

sidetrack

2006-08-16T02:41:57Z

lemme just sidetrack from my story for a while coz this just came to me.

remember the tree, the leaf and the wind?

why did the leaf leave ? because of the wind's pursuit or because the tree didnt try to keep it?

sometimes i do wonder.. maybe its half of each.

maybe the leaf felt that there was no point staying with tree anymore. there will be so many other leaves after it leaves. the tree will always be the same. the same leaves will always grow.

but the wind is never the same. no gust is as strong as the last one. no directions is ever exactly the same to the latitude.

maybe the leaf felt its time to leave.

why am i so sad? maybe because i just finished dolphin bay and the story line makes me really sad. maybe coz of other stuff.. maybe coz i'm stressed over school work. who knows?

its a long long journey, till i find own self worth. maybe u may think that i'm not worth anything. maybe u think that i'm worth something. on anything.
when satan mocks and friends turn to foes, it feels like everything is out to make me lose control.
its a long long journey, till i find my way home to you.

oh shit!

2006-08-15T13:56:54Z

i was thinking of saying sth silly here coz its been a long time since i've said sth crazy here.. so i was thinking abt it while i was bathing..

and so as usual, i finished shampooing, conditioning my hair so i left it on my hair to stay for a while.. and then i took the facial foam, globbed abit on my palm, and then, rubbed my palms together, and then, put my palms on top of my head.. ie, my hair.

i immediately went 'OH SHIT!!!"

sigh..

its really a silly thing i did.

第二章~ 再见

2006-08-15T10:46:38Z

从家人接到消息说你要结婚时, 心里的震惊是难以形容的.
我提不起勇气参加婚礼. 寄上礼物已竭尽我所能… 那夜,我的心没停止的痛了一晚.

好久没回家了. 这一次,是在五年里,第一次回家过年.
看见家人亲切的微笑, 让我感觉到家的温暖.

半年后, 我再次回到枫林. 那儿, 还是一如从前… 满树的枫叶围绕着我, 就象是枫的天堂.
漫无边际地走着, 欣赏着风景, 没想到迎面而来的人是你.

看你过得好,我从心里露出了笑容. ‘你好吗?’ 多么默契的开场白,让彼此都笑了出来.尴尬消失了. 简单结束了陌生

单纯的坦诚让我向你坦白当年的暗恋. 不扰了. 而你,却笑了笑,没说什么.

走在布满枫叶的路道上, 回忆起我俩之见的旧事,让我了解时间无法倒转.

第一章~ 你的承诺

2006-08-13T16:13:10Z

你还记得你说过的话吗? 那年春天, 你对我说,每年的秋天,在我生日时,要带我去看枫叶. 我们钩手指,盖手印. 说好了, 不变.

可是,在三年后,你第一次失约. 为了她.

远远地,我看着你们拥抱, 亲密地举止, 快乐的眼神. 不知不觉,我手中的蛋糕掉了. 我的心,好痛,好痛. 在那时,我才发现,我竟然喜欢你. 那是我第一次心痛.

当时,我转身离去. 到了家里, 我在房里枯等,就希望你还记得我们的约定. 可是, 那天, 你没有来. 整个秋季, 心里终究希望你会象从前一样, 拿着礼物,到我家, 说要帮我庆生,要带我去看枫叶.

那年之后, 你就没再遵守承诺. 我在很久以后才发现,因为她的生日,也在秋天.
从此,我和你,就从来没有到过那片枫林赏枫叶.

to be continued.....

遗失的美好

2006-08-13T16:06:31Z

你对我的承诺还算数吗? 我在等你实现承诺的那天. 等你,成了我的习惯.

海的思念绵延不绝
终于和天在地平线交会
爱如果走得够远
应该也会跟幸福相见

你对我说: ‘只要相信,期待就会成真’ 这是真的吗? 为什么你从来都没有来找我?

承诺常常很像蝴蝶
美丽的飞盘旋然后不见
但我相信你给我的誓言
就像一定会来的春天

是时候该向前看了吗? 是时候该放开了吗? 也许吧….

我始终带着你爱的微笑
一路上寻找我遗失的美好
不小心当泪滑过嘴角
就用你握过的手抹掉

如果放不开,那是因为谁都不能取代你.

再多的风景也从不停靠
只一心寻找我遗失的美好
有的人说不清哪里好
但就是谁都替代不了

如果我和你注定要到老,那…我一定会等到你.

在最开始的那一秒
有些事早已经注定要到老
虽然命运爱开玩笑
真心会和真心遇到

journey

2006-08-13T06:54:40Z

It's a long long journey
till i know where i'm supposed to be
it's a long long journey
and i don't know if i can believe
when shadows fall and block my eyes
i am lost and know that i must hide
it's a long long journey
till i find my way home to you

many days i've spent
drifting on through empty shores
wondering what's my purpose
wondering how to make me strong

i know i will falter i know i will cry
i know you'll be standing by my side
it's a long long journey
and i need to be close to you

sometimes it feels no one understands
i don't even know why
i do the things i do
when pride builds me up till i can't see my soul
will you break down these walls and pull me through

cause it's a long long journey
till i feel that i am worth the price
you paid for me on calvary
beneath those stormy skies

when satan mocks and friends turn to foes
it feel like everything is out to make me lose control
cause it's a long long journey
till i find my way home to you.to you

只要相信, 等待一定会成真

2006-08-12T18:52:22Z

just finished dolphin bay.. its sad i admit.

but i feel that ze shldnt have just made the decision for bian just like that. it resulted in so many problems in the end.

and in the end, i felt that he loved ni. i'm a selfish person. so i dont think i like that. coz he shld just love bian.

but when he was afraid of her to die, it showed that he loved her.

为什么睡觉时的你会哭?

blur_serene @ 2006-08-08T22:49:00

2006-08-08T14:51:16Z

like this song more and more.. so i just wrote a story on it. the words in the brackets are the lyrics...

好久以前, 你和我都曾有过快乐的日子. 但我知道,你心里一直有着她的影子. 我选择视而不见. 但直到有一天,她有出现了. 而我,也选择离开.

[再见面已经是朋友了
我们就这么单纯瞎聊着彼此说以后
时间过了学会珍惜了
原来最初的快乐并不是我们要的
终于能够坦白说着我当时的脆弱
是唯一的一次不留着遗憾的
简单结束了陌生]

再见到你,心,还是会痛. 原来我还爱着你.
过去和你的日子,我会藏起来,在回忆里, 慢慢回味.
但你不需要知道我,还爱着你.

[我们微笑了也都不躲了这单纯的坦诚
就这样我们为彼此推翻着不扰了
我们都笑了时间停了我们珍惜这一刻
放下累积的负荷卸下沉默学会了不保留]

再次见面,看着你牵着她的手, 我面无表情. 那么多年了.我学会了隐藏自己的情绪.微笑着, 对自己说 ‘是时候该放开了.’

[再见后真的是朋友了
我们都不再单纯也会笑着看以后
时间过了也更珍惜了
原来当时的快乐仍在你我记忆中
终于能够坦白说着我现在不寂寞
是全新的一次再也没了遗憾
简单的回应着伤痛]

这次,我说 ‘祝福你们..’
[我们微笑了也都不躲了这单纯的坦诚
你好吗多么默契的开场白我笑了
我们不走了不再尴尬了不回头凑理由
希望我们从此都真的快乐说好了不说走]

好东西

2006-08-06T13:55:38Z

i think i'm a little crazy over some songs now..

one of them below..

when did we agree to meet? should i check the information counter if we did agree?
changed from the weekend to monday but its still a sorry from you to me
why not lets meet in paris, since its just words..
the number of times u've let me down is almost the equivalent of 1 year.
it seems like i'm in tokyo, u're in San Fran

i'm always in the east and u've in the west

u're not a good thing. but u cant be replaced.
u're not a good thing, but i cant stop thinking about you... its ur badness that attracts me to you...

well, seems to me that girls like bad guys more... bad guys for me? sigh.. i think i'll see u in a nunnery...

would u?

2006-07-31T12:38:09Z

if u liked someone.. and that some1 likes some2. but some1 said that u were cute and nice. some2 goes behind some1's back and hurts u.

would u give up?

that's what the song spoke about. abt u not giving up and despite some2's words, still continued liking some1 and no matter what the people around her said, she still persisted in her own feelings.

its too hard for her to let go.

wondering

2006-07-31T07:39:02Z

if the person who was speaking in winning 11 had said every player's name at least 20 times.. maybe they recorded 'beckham' in different tones etc etc and then they had 'the ball to beckham', 'scholes to beckham'

etc etc..

i wonder how much he got paid to say things many many many times.

Do you feel sad reading this?

2006-07-28T17:28:20Z

Another thought that has been on my mind, is friends, or in better terms, friendship. There's so much i can say, but when it comes down to it, there's no perfect friendship. I've learnt to accept that. Its been a while and i've accepted being a 2nd friend. The 2nd person one looks to when they can't get the 1st. The 2nd person one asks to go out with, cuz the 1st is unavailable. The friend whose always been the backup, the one whom everyone knows she's will always be there no matter what, so there's no need to bother about asking her first. The one whom everyone knows is independent. Well today, i'm gonna say this. I hate being the 2nd friend. Say that i'm being irrational, illogical and basically just too sensitive and self-hallucinating, but thats what i'm feeling right now. I sat down today, thinking about my friendships. I have successful ones, firm ones, friendships that i call true and open, friendships i've failed, friendships where i feel like i'm just a follower, friendships where i know i don't count much. Why does it feel this way? Have i put too much emphasis on friendships where they don't count and lost the ones that actually do? Or have i just become a loser in this aspect too? My head's been swirling pretty much today and i just realised after today, that when i needed to find someone to talk to, about something important, i just couldn't find anybody. Now, then it hit me hard, i really am all alone. I had shun out people that had been there for me, and now that i've lost them, i can't take them back.

the following paragraph was adapted from a friend's blog. this is one section which i will remember... just like the prev post abt women giving chance ...

seriously

2006-07-26T13:04:54Z

i read only 1 forum and i havent been there for a long long time..

but there's this thread that got my attention the first time i saw it.

it says 'i seriously believe women give chance until the day their heart dies'

i dont know why i remember this so much. maybe coz its not a common title for a thread or what.. but i think its true

what say you?

the words of doctor sun

2006-07-25T16:24:22Z

孙白颺: 如果做每件事都斤斤计较,那做那件事就没有意义了.

the famous words of doctor sun pak yeung.

anyway, was just thinking.. would u choose love over power?

some seemed to choose love, others, power.

some choose to live a life this way, because they didnt know how to live another life, like Yue Yuet.

some choose to live this life because of their choice to do what they feel they had to do. like on sin

some choose to live this life because they had no choice, like e-shun

some choose to live this life, for others. like yuk ying.

all for one man. whom i think is totally old, not handsome, forgetful. the only thing he had, was power. he had the country in his own hands.

why didnt yuk ying leave with pak yeung when she had the chance? if it were me, i'd have stayed too..because of my mother.
but the way she did it, 我不敢领教. there can be oher ways to do it.

but to sum it up, i'd have just stayed out of it.
hahahaha..

平凡的日子最快乐

blur_serene @ 2006-07-20T12:11:00

2006-07-20T04:12:58Z

Don't Think..

Thinking makes me want to hit myself, crawl under the bed and whimper like a child coz no one understands the heart.

whimpering...thank goodness not whining. if i'm whining, i must be at max but i dont think i'd ever wanna whine coz its gonna make my nerves go taut and !@*^$@&^%*&@!^%&*#%^&%@

but i do wonder why i think of the word whine when i talk abt whimpering.. maybe coz they both start with 'whi'

hahahahahhaha